Cheeky Dancing, Philosophical Questions and Long Titles

Isn't it really awful when you haven't blogged in so long you actually have to read through your last blog to see what you have and haven't written about?!
..that is what I just did

 I would like to let you know that for the first time in MONTHS I went out last night. As in partying wise, not like y' know, to pop to the spar. Which I do often, which has just reminded me that I bought a creme egg from there earlier! Aw YES
 right sorry, party. well, it was fun times..bearing in mind that if I have a drink in my hand I will always call it a fun time. at one point in the night we left for another  party and me and my friend PartyPops decided that we would enter said party, get some alcohol, get pictures and be seen, then go. And my giddy aunt, our leaving was phenomenal. Mama Do The Hump came on (tune) so we took advantage of the situation and danced, quite literally, our way out of the front door! It must have  been the smoothest we have ever done ever. so proud of us.
Everyone was so, so lovely though. I'm like the 'exotic' one as I attend a different comp etc so it was  very ' OH MY GOD I HAVE NOT SEEN YOU IN SO LONG LET ME HUG YOU UNTIL YOU CAN NO LONGER BREATHE' which I obviously enjoyed to the full extent..
so yes I think we must of played the most awkward game of never have I ever, and obviously no night is complete without some crying somewhere! Which this time was actually me. On my friend's bathroom floor, and  before you ask yes, classy is my middle name.

WE HAVE HAD SNOW!!!
I was so happy on the Friday that this happened I could have cried. it was a top notch day. Snowball fights, snowman making, lots of tea, however my feet did get soaked and I was worried that on my way home I was  going to sit down and become one of those people you see dead in the snow. Which also Gappy informed me that a natural human reflex to being cold is to just yano..TAKE YOUR CLOTHES OFF. What?! don't get me wrong I think the human body is fantastic and I do not praise mine enough but seriously?? Taking clothes off when you're freezing, that's like jumping into a pool when you cannot swim without armbands.

I have a question for you all. Which is better, protecting the person you love from getting hurt and so getting hurt yourself or, telling them and so both of you getting hurt. Inevitably I will always opt for the first, where's the logic in 2 people getting hurt when only 1 needs to be? I guess it's a sticky situation. And saying that makes me want to quote parent trap. Anyway, wish me luck cos in the next couple.of weeks I'm going to do one of the hardest things I've ever done, again. Yaaaay

 To sum up other little things
BabywipesGalore has left to go and live with her parents on the other side of Wales and hey, I miss her.She's one of my best friends, she was part of bitch n stitch and it's like one of your family members dying. I just want her to be happy though so if she s happy, I'll be fine
 Also, Les Misérables is a terrific film. The theatre version will probably always be better but it's still outstanding, definitely recommend it!! I know it's cliché to the max, but I find that I can relate to Éponine a lot. I have also just realised that it looks like a child has tried to draw on the sentence with all the french accents in there.
I've definitely been watching too much FRIENDS, my last paragraph was said I'm Ross Geller's voice. Oh hellllllll

 Ok, this is my favourite song from the musical, enjoy, don't cry:)

Christmas, Cuppas and Happiness.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I know it's been a while since I last blogged but lots happened ok! When I say lots happened I mean that lots happened to other people and I talked to them about it. Nothing happened to me as I have spent the majority of the Christmas holidays on my sofa with a bowl of chocolates. Living it LARGE.

I, for one, had a very merry Christmas. It was a bit quiet, my nan went up to visit my cousins in London over Christmas so this year we had Christmas breakfast at our house, then we mooched about, went down to the Christmas swim..45 minutes late..so did a U-turn and went back home! My bestest present was probably my new pair of Doc Martens which are BEAUTIFUL they are blue with flowers on and they are so pretty I could frame them. Saying this I was the one who bought them (with my parent's credit card of course, it's Christmas!) so I did know what was coming. But they're still lush! I also got a Starbucks mug, which for some unknown reason makes me tea taste even better.
To let you know I like my tea, very strong and no sugar, NONE. One person once said that she likes her tea milky and with six sugars. SIX?!?!? Obviously I don't need anymore sugars because I am sweet enough..
I do enjoy a good cup of tea though and at the moment with a cheeky mince pie. I will miss mince pies alot. I have eaten a considerable amount this Christmas holidays. it's been wonderful.
And then New Year's Eve I stayed in and drank wine with the family and watched Jool's Hootenanny (which I love) I could've gone out and gone wild and partied, but i'm just an anti social git, so I didn't:)

My sister and I watched Pitch Perfect twice (not on christmas Eve, we're not that bad, throughout the holidays you div). It is a brilliant film! It has a great soundtrack and I recommend it for everyone. Also if you are one those people who are like 'I don't like sing-a-along type films, Les Miserables looks awful' then get off my blog, find a whale and jump into it' mouth. Films like Pitch Perfect are excellent, and that is final.

Well well well, I honestly thought lots had happened to me but actually, nothing has!
On New Year's Day I read through my old diaries. Throughout 2011 I wrote in one religiously, and it was a great year! There was Guide Camp and I was completely in love and everything was just happy happy happy, but 2012 like woah. For one, I hardly ever wrote in it (which was probably a good thing as reading back through would only depress my poor little brain.) But when I wrote on New Year's Day about the past year I found that it had actually been the worst in my life, so far. I am only sixteen so y'know, it has time to get better. I won't go into details (because I don't want to) but I am positive and 2013 will be amaze-balls.
However, what was not amazeballs was The Impossible. I see you looking with blank faces at this. Isn't this film supposed to be the best yet? Based on a real life story. yes, the story is amazing, yes the acting, cough Ewan Mcgregor cough, was exceptional. But it was so emotional. and traumatic. and emotional. And from about 45 minutes i was crying. And I don't just sit there and have a little river of tears falling and no one really notices OH HELL NAW I shake and my mouth goes and I am gone like a gone thing.
There were also small children running around the cinema like it was a fucking fairground, and I hate it when this happens. I was so prepared to go down to them and throw them against the cinema screen and batter them and tell them that they're adopted. However I didn't, not because I'm a good person, because that would take effort, and I was crying.

I also know that this year I'm going to be a much stronger person. Mainly because I have done things already this year that i'm proud of. Keeping my mouth shut being one of them! I don't like telling people how I feel, I mean, if I really need to I will, and if it helps their situation i will. But apart from that? I'm good. I don't like telling people my feelings if it's going to make them unhappy. And I guess I have a couple of friends who I go out of my way for to make them happy. Is it always healthy? Definitely not. But does it make me happy? Yes, because they're happy, and when one person's happy it radiates onto everybody else.
And another thing, I don't like men. I'm not coming out as a lesbian, just at the moment, I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want to be talking to anyone, i don't want to be flirting with anyone. I get lonely yes, but it's come the point when I can't see myself with anyone else and I don't want to be with anyone else. I'm just so absolutely awesome I don't need a man holding me down. Or up, whatever floats ya boat..
But in this day and age I sometimes feel that people don't understand this. That no one's ever really been alone because they are so obsessed with getting a boyfriend/girlfriend, with having to talk to/have SOMEBODY. I don't understand why this is. Because two is better than one? Or because everybody wants to be in love because 'love is all you need.' I see these young people saying they're in love, which is lovely, I mean if you're happy, whatever. But when people move on from partner to partner so quickly that I haven't even finished a cheesecake, that's not healthy. I'm never sure if it's the way they have been brought up or what, but you can't just start seeing loads of people one after the other, because surely then relationships will just be a routine? Having a girlfriend/boyfriend won't mean anything to you and you'll just take it completely for granted.

ok, so this is it.
WAH! All I thought then was 'So this is christmas' and it's not Christmas anymore and I'm going back to school tomorrow. I can't remember the last time I went to sleep before midnight. I can't remember the last time I had a proper meal before dinner. I am going to die. that is it. Goodbye cruel world, until next time.